Sometimes I feel like the epitome of a sinner, because of how my life before being saved doesn’t seem to want to go away. I was the sweet girl that all of the teachers liked, because I was a kiss-up, and in front of other people, I acted like an “angel”. I was the smart one with all of the answers and I raised my hand all of the time in Bible Class (I went to a Christian elementary school) and Sunday School.

          I thought ‘of course I’m going to Heaven. I’m a good Christian so Jesus loves me.’ It wasn’t until middle school that someone was blunt with me and reminded me of scriptures like Ephesians 2:8-9 and Titus 3:5, telling me that I’m relying on myself for salvation, which will get me nowhere. Jesus Christ is the way, the truth, and the life! I repented then and now my goal is to glorify Him in every way!

My struggle with sin hasn’t ended though. I’ve found myself tempted heavily with homosexual sin. This started in my sophomore year of high school, and I’m continually struggling with the desire to lust after other girls, or even the desire to enter into a relationship with one. I know that these are sinful desires, and I want to glorify God. I’m cutting off my hand to these desires by going to less sleep-overs, and surrendering my thought life to God. Why in the world would I want to go against His perfect plan for me? He probably has a husband for me someday rather soon, so why jeopardize that? 

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In all things, praise be to God! ♥